Am I or aren't I?

So one last post before test day. Have to be honest I really do not know what to think anymore; after hitting rock bottom thinking it definitely had not worked all period like symptoms ie cramps etc have now left me. So i think someone up there is messing with my mind a little bit because they have given me hope just when I thought I was starting to deal with the fact that we had been unsuccessful again. Mmmmmmm am I or aren’t I? 3 more sleeps until I know . . . . PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE it's not often i beg!!!!