SUNDAY: So the day of egg collection is finally here. Oh I was so nervous! I started the day with a walk along the beach with Occy just to calm me down a little bit and then L and i made our way over to Hamilton. We arrived at 10.40 I was given a sedative instantly to relax me and make me sleepily then I had a lovely snooze to 11.00. My Dr came in and put in an IV line and I went through to the operating theatre. It was a full house there were 2 doctors 2 nurses and L. So they started the procedure which basically involves a needle being guided along the side of an ultrasound probe which enters the vagina. The needle then pierces through the ovaries into the follicles and collects the egg - okay sounds ouch and it really is ouch. I was meant to be all sleepy and relaxed but believe me I felt every pierce, in fact at two stages it got so bad L asked them to give me more drugs!! Then just like a little lady I threw up over myself twice on the drive home – probably due to the extra anaesthetic I was given. All in all 15 eggs were collected which sounds good but nothing is a definite until you know how those eggs are. I have to ring the clinic at 10am on Monday to see if we have anything fertilised. Standing straight is quite a problem right now, but this should heal pretty quickly and I should stop bleeding over the next 24 hours. God this is a long drawn out process with no guarantees. Every day I find myself praying for miracles. MONDAY: Talk about nervous, I called the embryologist at 9.45 I just could not wait any longer. Unfortunately it was not good news – but then L and I have never had amazing fertilisation rates so I wasn’t expecting anything amazing just 4, I would have been happy with. Out of the 15 eggs 5 were too immature to do anything with. That left us with 10 eggs which they injected with sperm. Out of the 10 4 fertilised but one fertilised abnormally so it will be discarded. All in all we are left with 3 but still have a long way to go. Because they do tend to have the habit of arresting (which means not developing or dividing any further after day 1) we really do not have much to play with. I wll have to call tomorrow lunch time to see if they have divided normally overnight. Oh this waiting kills me. Because they have to be so honest we have been told to keep our fingers etc crossed because of the low fertilisation rate there is a very real danger of them not continuing to develop. You know what is really horrible; you go through all of this and are left with so little. Each day waiting is just more and more stressful. Please let at least one continue normally we only need one to be a little fighter and decide it wants L and I to be it's mom and dad, one is all we need to make our baby . . . . .